It has been a while since I posted. Last time was 5/16. Last weekend I joined my sister and brother in law on a visit to see my mother and step father. Found mom physically better than I feared but no to good. And her memory is really bad! How ever she seemed to really enjoy our visit and both she and Joe were happy with the new computer that Rich and Ruth had purchased and prepared for them. Rich and I installed it and now they are back on email big time.
I also visited Jo's mother on Sunday morning. Jo's brother and sister were there too but I don't think Eileen was sure who I was or just how I fit into the family. She was less upset and much more calm than the last time I saw her but she still seemed very frail.
The trip home was interesting. While waiting out a flight delay in Spokane I became acquainted with two women in the airport. Somehow I told them that my wife had passed away recently. They were both very nice and supportive. One of them lives in Santa Rosa and is divorced but I didn't get her name although I did think about it! Another woman on the plane was also a widow. She tried to be helpful but by that point I was very blue.
The blues continued Monday and Tuesday. I was more down than I have been in a few weeks. I suppose being in Washington without Jo was the trigger; I was never there without her in 40 years.
Seeing her brother and sister seemed to bring her to mind more to. They are both very good to me and clearly love me but they are reminders.
Tomorrow Marissa (grand daughter aged 13) graduates from the eighth grade. With her mother's help I bought her a bed spread as a gift. I wanted to send a note with it but I couldn't. I wanted to write about how proud Grandma was of Marissa and how much she would been thrilled by the graduation and by Marissa's achievements. I could not write it though!
My running and biking is going well. Ran 5 miles with hills on Tuesday for a new P.B. Feels good, I am still improving and feeling good. My promise to Jo to keep my weight down is holding, and I am happy about that.
Closing for now....
