Building a new relationship after my wife's death.

My wife died on April 1, 2004. We had been married for just over 40 years. We were in college when we got married. In spite of having a wonderful family and lots of friends who are very considerate and are going out of the their way to help me, I am still feeling lost!

I don't know sometimes how I will be able to go on for the rest of my life with out her. I am back to work but I don't have the patience or attention span to work on difficult problems for very long. And pressure just seems to overwhelm me now. I don't sleep very soundly and I wake often during the night so on top of everything else I feel tired much of the time.

The week, Wednesday would have been Jo Lynn's birthday. Our daughter is coming in the afternoon to visit me. She will leave her classroom early to drive here so that we can be together to "celebrate" the day. We will visit the grave, place flowers, and then have dinner. I hope this is the right thing to do but I am not sure? Should we have ignored it?

I'll see if I can write more tomorrow.

Walt