Building a new relationship after my wife's death.

Today was a better day. I managed to stay engaged in my work without drifting off into memories very often. Tomorrow Deanna, my daughter will be here and we will honor Jo Lynn's birthday. That will be pretty difficult I am afraid but I think that we need to do it, at least Deanna does.

I still have trouble sleeping. Last night was very bad. I suddenly became concerned that Jo couldn't talk to us during the last several hours after she was sedated and intubated. She knew I was there and later Deanna but she could only look at us with droopy eyes. Once Deanna said that she squeezed her hand. No reason that I should have started to worry about that just now. But I did only think of it last night and now it is stuck in my mind again!