I visited Deanna and all this weekend. Drove there Saturday late morning and went boating with them at Sly Park. Yesterday, Deanna, Rich, and Scott were boating with the Santanas and I took Marissa to church and then dropped her at the Sugerloaf Arts Camp after lunch.
I was feeling pretty blue on Friday and I was good to see them. I thought about how I feel on the way home (three hours to ponder). I think somehow that my being alone is starting to feel less odd but that doesn't seem to relieve the loneliness. I got home last night, hot, tired, and drained, wasn't able to get myself going very well. I am preparing to take the two week vacation starting on Friday but even that seems to be losing some of the appeal it had before.
One thing that has been dragging me down is a spat of dealing with more medical bills. The last two weeks it was Aetna with the hospital bills that looked like I would have pay $100K, then it got resolved. Last night there was another bill, this time another Doc that got the wrong insurance company information from Good Sam. Seems like it never ends!
I will be busy at work this week and busy at home getting ready to leave next Monday.
