Things are pretty back to normal and that is good, I guess. I awoke this morning and I imagined that Jo was there with me! I have no idea where the feeling came from; I just felt it. I wasn't dreaming as far as I know but still the feeling. Then as I realized the feeling I felt silly. She can't be there and I know that.
The reality is that I still have this kind of feelings fairly often. They don't last long, and thought they usually (always) make me feel sad most of the time I don't weep and the feeling passes. Sometimes the sadness persists for longer times but if I am busy even the sadness is short lived.
In the news (Yahoo) this morning I noticed a photograph of a woman who lost her husband in the 9/11 attack. She was attending a hearing in WDC and her wedding ring was prominent on her hand. Makes me wonder...I haven't worn mine for a while now. I still carry it on my key ring but I am not wearing it. Nothing has changed in my behavior but still; What is the right time for this. Does it matter how the spouse died? Does the age matter? Does it matter that younger people have children at home? Or is it something everyone must guess about and then figure out for themselves?
