Well my vacation is over. And I haven't posted for weeks. The rest of the vacation was great. Saw my sister and others family. Had a good time. Met my sister's new step children and liked them a lot. Saw my mother and now I worry about her more and feel the need to support her and Joe a bit more than I do.
Got home and went camping with my kids and g-kids. It was hot, dusty, windy, and the boat broke down!
Then I had each of the older g-kids at my house for a week each. Loved that but the last day was Friday and I am glad to be back on my own. This past weekend I visited Jake and his family in San Diego, also had a good time there.
During the last several weeks I think my coping is improving but I still experience these waves of loss and sadness. They sweep over me almost with out warning and take from a few minutes to a few hours to dissipate. For example in church two weeks ago with Scott, he was very sad and I realized that he missed G-ma. It made me very sad too. Another day I asked him if he wanted to visit the cemetery; No he said, it would just make me sadder still. I know how he feels.
I'll close for now.
More..8/17/04
Things seemed a little more normal last night. After 2 weeks of vacation and 2 weeks of grandkids it seems good to be back to normal. I missed not being able to come into the office early (I was taking the g'kids to the church of bible school at 8:30 before work). I have a lot to do at home and I hope to get some time to clean up the office either Wed night or on Saturday. It is messy and cluttered with the new printer.
This Friday I will go to a Giants game in SF with Deanna and family to celebrate birthdays. Looking forward to that, I hope it isn't too cold. Last year we froze our butts off:-)
I am at the office and I have time to write here while I am backing up my email files. I can do the backup because our email is down for some reason. Very annoying.
I am trying to decide if I should begin to call some women friends that I have known over the years who might still be single or know women who are. I think about it and decide to do it but then I never act on that decision...I don't know exactly what the timing should be for such moves?
Marion Wells called yesterday, I will call her back and see if I can get together with her and Doug for supper. Also need to hook up with Rob and Lois, and perhaps Linda & Bunny. Oh well. (These are all Jo Lynn's friends not candidates).
Tonight is Men's club at church so I will have a good meal today.
I have kept up my running and been fairly good about eating since Jo died. I haven't gained any weight, still 184 this morning. And I consistently run 12 to 15 miles each week (4.7 miles last night).
