My sister, Ruth was here this weekend from Seattle for a visit. It was great to have her and to spend time with her. She and have grown into very different people but we also share a lot of traits and opinions. Spending time with her, talking about our lives was very helpful to me. And I think she appreciated it too.
We drove to Deanna’s house on Saturday, afternoon and had dinner with all of her family. After we left them Ruth said, “they are such nice people”. I of course think that but it is so nice to hear that from someone else. It makes me proud that both Deanna and Jake have built such good lives and families.
Having her visit almost exactly one year after was last here, one week after Jo Lynn’s funeral was really helpful. However after she left yesterday, I seemed to feel the weight of being alone even more. Maybe because we talked about it and about Jo Lynn quite a lot or maybe because I had someone to talk for two days and that I haven’t had that for more than a year. Children and grandchildren, wonderful as they are, can’t be the same sounding board as Jo Lynn was or as my sister is. I do fine without such a person but I do miss it after having it for a couple of days. I also get to be a sounding board for my sister and I miss not experiencing that too.
I am sure these feelings will pass in a few days but for now they are there.
