I am back from Maui. It was a great vacation and it was very good to spend time together as a family. I was surprised that the kids all began talking about “next family vacation” and how to plan it. I hope we are able to make it work again. On Friday, I promised Scott that we would go back again in three years (when he and Marissa both have graduations) and Jake wanted to be sure that I didn’t intend to wait three years for the next family vacation. It was a lot of fun even though Scott couldn’t do most activities because of his recent, healing, appendectomy. Scott was a real trooper, little complaining and great cooperation. Both he and Marissa shared the duty of helping with Max, although Max loves to spend time with Scott, Marissa is very good with him and he loves attention from her as well.
We did all the things that were planned, surfing, parasailing, zip-line, snorkeling, boogie boarding, just swimming, biking from the summit of Haleakala (10,000 feet to sea level, covering 38 miles), and more.
I missed Jo Lynn often but it was not something that made me sad, thoughtful perhaps but not sad. I did have some dreams that included her. In one she was starting to drink beer in a bar! I was taking the tiny cups she had, away from her but then some of her AA friends swept in and took her safely away! I never had a dream like this before, even when she was alive! In the other dreams (details not remembered) she was just there with us.
I am tired since I couldn’t sleep on the red-eye we came home on. But I want to stay up late enough to get a normal night’s sleep tonight. I will go have a salad for dinner soon. I need to make up for a week of very bad eating habits!
Added 6-13-05
I was very lonely yesterday afternoon and evening. Thought about Jo more often than I usually do and I certainly missed the kids after being with them all week. And the book from my 40th High School reunion came and reading through the stories made me even more gloomy! I am back at work this morning and I will be sucked into the vortex soon enough.
