I feel a little better than I did on Sunday. Still pretty stressed but better, last night I slept better than I had been. Work remains tense as we fight tight deadlines and difficult technical problems.
Deanna et al plan to come down on Saturday, for a while, they will pick up the material her church lent my church for VBS. She will also take the computer I have for them and a shadow box I built to hold the dress (and stuff) that Deanna and Marissa wore for their baptisms. She will help me finish it by arranging and pinning the dress and stuff. I am pleased with the way the project turned out.
I have more outings this week. Tomorrow night I will be at the Weber’s for dinner and I am giving them the extra Giant’s tickets for the August 28th. I have other seats for Deanna and family so my regular seats are free. I need to find someone to go with me for the game on Monday 8/22. Not sure who I will ask.
I think I will go out for a walk and see if that will help me relax…I did go for walk, about five miles. Feel a little better now.
This morning I wondered if I was really as unhappy and sad as I thought I was…so I went back a read the first 10 entries I made on this blog in May of 2004! After reading them there is no doubt that I am not in that condition now, not even close. It was hard to read them because it made me recall the very difficult months right after she died but at the same time the rereading improved my perspective. I don’t feel quite a sorry for myself as I did.
